Hello i im Josh samual and im 56 years old and i feel as if my death is near not physicly but mentaly my mother decided to send me to the doctors to see if anything waswrong with my brain but they didn't find anything of note.
i tried not to think about the inevitability of death but it keeps coming back but this was far from over, this year the feeling was there nonestop and it was mixed with dark thoughts on ways i could end my life.
And nightmares were filling my sleep about people i love moving on to the afterlife or however death works i was crying and praying for them to live threw a marvelous afterlife.
and it doesn't help that some people believe that there is nothing after you die it just adds more fear to it and i don't want to be forgotten!
i must find a way to calm myself down maybe going for a walk will help.
So i just came back and it didn't help as halfway threw i saw a dark robbed figure turning its head towards me near a cemetery i ran away before it could chase me and i was terrefied and i wanted to scream but i was too tired from all that running.
I hope that i wont ever see that demon again!
Well i saw it again at 12:00 somehow i woke up and my backyard lights were turned on, i thought it was because of an animal moving around but no it was that figure again holding a scythe it didn't have a face like last time.
I wasn't able to look away from it and it motioned me to come closer but i was frozen in fear so instead it flied towards my bedroom window and vanished, i must have fainted as it was day time when i woke up on the floor.
i made breakfast and looked everyone outside and inside my house just to make sure that the creature was gone.
and when i returned to my bedroom the computer was on but i didn't turn it on in the first place i slowly aproached it and it was on a page about the grim reaper which was described exactly as the being i saw but with a skull for a face and a skeletel body and he of course represents death.
At this point i just wanted to get it over with and was ready to let it all go so i ran to the cemetery where i saw him for the first time and waited.
he apeared before me from dark clouds and this time he showed his full form and asked me for one last request before my death and i want this post to be imortalised on the internet shown to lots of people.
im ready to move on!